Stuck

For all of you who are wondering...

I went back to the doctor today. Dilation is about the same, I am effacing a little bit more than last week. At this point my instruction is to stay on bedrest for the next three weeks. At that point I am allowed to get up and resume normal activity because at that point it won't matter if I go into labor. My instructions are: no cooking, cleaning, laundry and I'm not allowed to pick up Noah. I am supposed to wake up, get ready for the day, sit on the couch and only get up for meals and bathroom needs. I am allowed to perform church functions that I consider "absolutely necessary."

I'm so bummed. I know it is for the baby and to help the baby, but it just seems a little dramatic. I'm not that dilated. I'm not trying to second guess the doctor, I'm really not. I just am sad because I was hoping to spend the early days of summer alone with Noah... at the zoo and the pool and at the park. And now I can't even push him on the swing in the yard. Three weeks will go quickly, I'm sure. I missed my anniversary gift, I'm missing lots of events we had planned with our friends and I'm just a little sad and disappointed.

I have gotten a lot of scrapbooking done, made some bibs and burp cloths, and I bought items to make baby girl a beautiful quilt. Those things will make me happy. And I thank God that I am healthy and the baby is healthy and that there is no danger on the horizon.

Thanks for all of your thoughts and prayers....