Back to the New Grind

It's been 8 weeks since surgery.  It's so hard to believe it has been that long already!  I am so grateful to be mobile again.  I certainly still have a limp, but it is improving every day.  I am going to therapy twice a week and I am allowed to ride the exercise bike.  Still no running, jumping or lateral movement until April/May.  It's hard because for 6 weeks I was so restricted and now all of the sudden the therapists want me to do tons of stuff so quickly and it is a little overwhelming, but I'm getting there little by little!!!

Having so much time to think has been really good for me.  I have really enjoyed knowing I have such an amazing community.  I have loved seeing Noah become more self sufficient and independent.  I have been able to claim more of my decisions and know that in some small sense I have big choices to make about my own happiness... and sometimes that is as easy as declaring -- I will be happy!!!  It is so easy to get caught in the pity me trap and get bogged down in the circumstances, but I learned over and over again in the past 3 months that God always gives us things to celebrate and moments that are filled with joy. 

I am struggling with the after effects of almost a year of sedentary life.  I was on bedrest from May through the end of June, then I had a newborn and then I had about 2-3 good months before I fell.  So, whatever muscle tone I kept from pre-bedrest is completely and totally gone.  I haven't gained weight, but the areas of my body that were active and healthy have deteroirated into the life of a couch potato.  So, again I face the uphill battle of getting back in shape!!!  And my therapists stand on the sidelines yelling simultaneously -- hurry up and slow down!

So, I am back to the new grind.  Back to work, fully.  Back to parenting, fully.  Back to various activities and hobbies and routines.  Many of the things I have always done, but now I just hope to do them a little more cheerfully and peacefully!  Thanks again for your love and care!!!!