Happy Valentine's Day!

We love you!!

And the baby is....

Sadly, once again, all I am able to report is that it is a baby! We went for our big ultrasound today and a tech and a doctor spent a total of about 35 minutes looking specifically for gender and saw nothing!!!! The baby had it's legs crossed and it's body bunched up and would not move. The tech even switched over into 3D for us at one point which was really really cool! Paul's really excited for the delivery now and the announcement of "it's a...." but I'm bummed b/c I had two distinct nursery designs in my head.

But, the much better news is that the tumor has disappeared!!! No one knows how, but it has! I wasn't even praying for that, just that it wouldn't interfere, but it has completely fallen off the radar. This news is worth it to not know the gender...

But, the flip side is that we won't go for any more regular ultrasounds because they aren't monitoring the tumor any more. So, we probably really won't find out.

It's sort of weird though, because we took that urine test at 10 weeks and it was inconclusive. We don't have names. After we found out we were having a boy last time we went to Babies R Us and picked out cute boy stuff for him that day. Today we went before hand and thought we'd pick out something cute for either a boy or a girl and come back for it, but we couldn't decide on anything really! So, this is just our anonymous little baby who wants to be a big old secret!!!!

19 Weeks

Well, I would say we are halfway. For those of you who don't know pregnancy lingo, everyone walks around saying that pregnancy is 9 months long, which in a logical mind would be 9X4 or 36 weeks, but alas, that is not the case. It is until the END of the 9 months, and actually 40 weeks long which plays out to be 10 months. So, twenty weeks is half way. I had Noah at 37 weeks and so I have my fingers and toes crossed that this one will be the same which would mean I am more than half way (these are the mind games I play with myself!).

Sometimes I can't believe we are already half way but then most of the time I can't believe how much longer there is to go! The easy part is done... now I will really start to grow and become clumsier and more uncomfortable. But, it is also time to start decorating and purchasing and organizing, which is VERY exciting and fun. It is so sweet to pick special things for a baby that will mean so much for years to come. I keep looking back to Noah's pictures of his nursery and remembering how much thought and care and love we put into each and every decision. I'm excited to welcome another little one with so much love.

Today at 2:30 is our ultrasound. It is scheduled to last an hour so that they can get a good look at the tumor and its affect on the placenta. We will also find out the gender. Don't ask about names because we really, truly don't know and can't really agree on anything.

I'm really not all that big. I'm still in all my old clothes and haven't donned a maternity item yet (I'm holding out as long as I can!). Most people can't tell that I'm pregnant which is fine... I like the anonymity. I've gained about 6 lbs which is totally okay with me. I didn't lose in the beginning this time around and I'm following a strict schedule for what weight I need to be to have a 20-25 lb weight gain. I still allow myself indulgences all the time, but I also work out nearly every day.

So, here is the updated pic... one to see the belly and one to see how I look to the world...