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I keep talking about all of these changes, because, well, our life is in flux. Some days I am wrecked by 7AM. Other days I make it until noon before I throw my hands in the air. There have been a lot of challenges.

Maeve has reflux, has battled thrush on and off, and HATES her car seat which makes any outing challenging. She is, however, darling. She talks so much in coos and has her own little laugh now. She is mild mannered, except when in pain, and is really truly a great baby. She has started sleeping through the night completely. Eats at 6, goes to bed, we wake her at 9 to eat and then sleeps til 6 AM.

3 has been good to Noah and he has turned into the most angelic little being. I could literally swallow him whole and feel like I had just eaten a pile of the best sweets ever. He walks around telling me how much he loves me and how much Maeve is his best friend. He helps with EVERYTHING and loves EVERYONE! He went shopping with me on Saturday for 5 hours and was so much fun. He went in and out of dressing rooms and told me I looked beautiful in everything. It was lovely.

Despite all of this goodness, I still haven't found balance in my "new life." I am used to a significant amount of alone time which is virtually gone. I am not in the car anymore since I walk to work, but that severely damages my shopping habits and so I have no new cute clothes (poor me, I know). Maeve won't go in Kids Korner at the Y so I can't work out there anymore (at least for a while), so I am now getting up at 5 to work out and have some alone time (which is not my idea of a good time, but gives me great perspective watching the sun rise.) I feel a huge relief now that I don't have to write sermons every week and yet I still struggle to find time to get to work (thank God they are flexible)... we are working on getting some help for the kids (thanks mom and sarah!).

So, yesterday was horrible. Noah was needy, Maeve was constipated. Noah had to be locked into his preschool class. Maeve struggled to nap. Ugh. I was frazzled at best.

But today was wonderful. I got up and went for my run, made pancakes for breakfast, took Noah to the library to get his first library card and then to the store. With Maeve in the Peanut Shell I was able to get a full grocery trip in without a breakdown (I have abandoned many grocery carts lately). We came home and made bread in my new breadmaker, ate lunch, and had friends over. At 2 I went to work without kids because we now have a part time nanny coming a few days a week (a previous member and dear friend at Rock). Noah took a nap and so did Maeve, and Paul came home and made dinner.

I'm sorry for the verbal diarrhea of all of this, but I guess it just feels so nice to know for sure that we will make it through this stage and the next one and the next one. I knew that eventually God would make the path clear and provide a way for God's plan to work, but for so long I struggled so much. I'm so happy to have this wonderful husband and these two beautiful children and I just feel great!

So, if I don't return calls or emails, or seem out of touch, it is just me trying to soak up every minute of our chaos and find joy in it all. I know there will be time for calls and outings later and I'm content with that!

Have a great day!!!